woah.

so, tomorrow is a big day.
we got a phone call this afternoon that the birthmom that we will be meeting tomorrow has been admitted to the hospital, and this baby could come any time. they're hoping to buy another week. but... we know how that can go. this baby girl could be here any time.
it's so close i can almost touch it.
still, there's the ever-present reality that another two couples who will also be meeting "birthmom" are hoping and praying for the same thing we are. for us, this means, while it feels SO CLOSE, it could ultimately be over very soon ~ this expectancy. 
talking with one of my sisters this afternoon i expressed that this "heart in my throat" feeling must be something like what one must feel when they find out they are pregnant - "this could really be it!" vs. "this might not last", but with such excitement and nervousness. i can't quite put it into words. but it struck me, this feeling i have this afternoon is maybe the closest i will ever get to whatever that other feeling must be. and when i think about what this could mean for us, and think about holding that sweet baby girl in my arms, there's this explosive feeling. wow. 
tomorrow is a big day.
so much to do tonight to get projects out of the way and be ready for whatever tomorrow will bring.
praying for grace and peace for our hearts, and for all the others' involved. what a delicate thing this all is.