eligible?

jeremy and i completed a home study in april to be eligible for adoption. eligible to be parents? we had to complete parenting trainings that, probably, every parent would benefit from, not that they were all that informative. people just tell us all the time "nothing can prepare you..."
we are ok with that. we just want the opportunity to experience it.

if i had somehow conceived in april, instead of gone to parenting trainings, i would be about 6 and 1/2 months pregnant right now. i have a whole new appreciation for women going throught that long wait. april seems like forever-ago.

this week, we will be meeting an expectant couple who have chosen adoption for their child. they have read our "adoption profile" and asked to meet with us to discuss open adoption arrangements. a baby boy is expected to be born late january 2011. to think that he might get to belong with us... lights up my eyes and makes me hold my breath just a little.